High School thoughts.

Hello everyone, welcome to THE MIND, my mind. I hope the last few days haven't been too stressful.

I have decided to share with you all a few words I wrote down yesterday, but for some reason didn't post them. Here they are:

My stomach is filled with tiny butterflies as if when I watch a nice romantic movie or like the beginning of a new crush. I, however, have neither watched a romantic movie nor have a crush on anyone. I feel a bit guilty having this feeling since a few minutes ago I was attempting to help one of my best friends with relationship problems. I can't help it though, all I want to do is day dream of potential romances. Weirdly that's all I want to do- day dream. At least for now.

At 17 I know I don't want to get caught up with a real romance. Sure they are nice for a couple of days but then it usually turns into drama and could lead to a break down like the one my beautiful friend had. She's a strong girl. How unfortunate that I couldn't really offer good advice. I myself have yet to be involved with someone romantically. I know my day will come or at least I hope so.

I keep thinking of my freshman crush - he was a senior at the time. I was so hung up on him and I never really spoke to him. I simply admired him from a distance and during P.E., my only class with him. The little I knew of him I found out from people who spoke of him and his cousin whom I'm friends with. Unbelievably I only got over him at the end of my sophomore year. Hard to believe that in three weeks I will be a senior. My last year of high school.

I spent all my years hoping for the end of high school and now that it's almost here I know I will truly miss it.

I have done a lot of growing up since my freshman year and had to overcome some difficult moments. Those moments have only made me stronger and a better me.

Since him I've only had one other crush. It was just a minor one. Turned out he was taken so I moved on. Simple as that. I don't understand why all crushes can't be that simple. If it's not going to happen than it's not going to happen. Right? Alright, I'll admit I was a bit bummed out for a few days but I realized that it wasn't going to happen and I moved on. It's pointless to dwell on one person with no hope.

Anyways, I still kind of hope to talk to that freshman crush. He was my first major crush in high school and I guess that's not something one forgets. :)

I'll stop my rambling. I wish everyone of you the absolutely best in any thing you do. May we all fine true love and happiness one day and if we don't than we'll just get a cat or two. I absolutely adore cats (or a dog for cat haters).

Best of wishes, Noemi.